Honestly, something that makes me nervous is new situations, like being in a new job environment, or being in a crowd of people I don’t really know (especially if I’m doing something I don’t usually do). I feel like people wouldn’t think this about me probably because of how I portray myself on social media, but nope, I’m more of a shy girl at heart.

Even when it comes to social media these days, I feel nervous creating videos of myself speaking, when years ago I used to host a consistent IG live podcast every Monday, and not even bat an eye. Part of me wonders if it’s because I see and hear so many voices and people doing their thing on social media, and I feel like maybe mine is silenced a little, or doesn’t matter much. Who would want to hear me speak?, I probably think.

I used to want to be a poetry performer: write a book, go on a book tour, and perform my poems. These days, I would rather just read my poetry. I felt some shame in admitting this because there definitely is a difference between performing your poetry and reading it. But I am understanding now that you can read in a powerful way too without it coming off as bland. I also know that I could practice this part of my passion, but with what time during the day? I wish we had more than 24 hours sometimes so I could do all the things I want to every day.

Confrontational people make me nervous because confrontation makes me nervous. Of course, sometimes confrontation can be good, but if it’s giving off more of a negative tone, I definitely become more anxious about what the conversation could be about.

I feel like there’s probably more things that make me nervous, but I’ll stop here so the post isn’t too long! 😅

What makes you nervous? Why?

Mishy 🦋🧡