Hey guys! Sorry it’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I really need to do better at blogging at least a couple times every week. Right now, I’m just trying to balance everything and get my stuff together before classes start TOMORROW. YES. TOMORROW.
As I’m unpacking and figuring out class/work schedules and putting new posters up on my door, I wonder if I’m ready for this semester. I’m kind of physically unprepared because, let’s be real, in a little bit I’m going to go down to Walmart with Bria and Kae’sha because I forgot to get notebooks for my classes. How did I forget something so important?
And I literally just got an email about a journalism practicum that I signed up for this semester, and was just told that I should have arranged to have a position where I have to write or edit. Umm, I’ve done no such thing, but could have during Christmas break had I known that that was what I was supposed to do. And so, I’m now kind of freaked out about this. I’m not exactly sure how I’m going to have time to find a place that will offer me a position to write or edit for them while I’m taking other classes and doing work study.
Honestly, maybe part of this is my fault. I probably should’ve emailed about the practicum sooner, but I didn’t think that I had to be the one looking for something, I thought this was something that my professor already had set up with some writing organization or company. But I guess that’s why you don’t assume things…something I’m constantly learning.
Earlier today, I was flipping through an issue of Alternative Press magazine and showing Bria some of the posters that were inside, and one of them was of a band called Set It Off. Bria expressed that she liked them a lot, and I told her that I’d never really listened to them, except Kae’sha had showed me one of their music videos over Christmas break.
We went on YouTube, and I found the music video for Set It Off’s song “Why Worry” and we watched it. And as I watched it for the second time and actually listened to the words, I realized how great of a song it was and how much it related to my life. Here are the lyrics:
This sinking feeling sets,
It feels just like a hole inside your chest.
I know you’re thinking,
No, no, no, no, it is easier said than done,
But please let me attest.
I know it’s hard.
You’re feeling like you’re trapped,
But that’s how you react,
When you cannot see the light.
But try and see the light.
I’m tellin’ you,
No, no, no, no,
You’re the only one
Standing in your way,
Just take a breath, relax, and tell me…
Please tell me why do we worry?
Why do we worry at all?
Just tell me why do we worry?
When worry is never helping tell me why worry at all?
Why do we insist,
On crossing bridges that do not exist?
Let’s take these issues
Step by step by step, to work it out,
Day by day by day we’re falling down,
But life goes on.
I’ve got some questions,
Are you sick of feelin’ sorry?
And people sayin’ not to worry?
Sick of hearing this hakuna matata motto,
From people who won the lotto,
We’re not that lucky.
Have you noticed that you’re breathing?
Look around and count your blessings,
So when you’re sick of all this stressin’ and guessin’ I’m suggestin’ you turn this up and let them hear you sing it.
Chin up, quit actin’ like you’re half dead.
Tears can only half fill how you’re feelin’.
Don’t worry, be happy baby.
Stand up, life is too damn short,
That clock is ticking.
Man up, if ya feel me,
Everybody sing it.
I’m telling you, guys, I think this is gonna be my song of the semester. Because I’ve already told you how much I worry, and listening to this song reminds me of my main goal this year: to worry less, to replace fear with faith. And so, with all that in mind and with this new little bump in the road that’s come my way, I’m just gonna take it step-by-step, day-by-day. Instead of using my time and thoughts to worry, I’ll be praying that either God opens a door for me to continue doing this practicum or He closes it. I won’t lie, it’s going to be hard to open my hands and give all my anxiety about this situation and other circumstances in my life to God, but really, He’s the only One Who can truly comfort me and guide me through this.
I gotta go, Bria and Kae’sha are waiting for me! Praying that the start of this week has gone well for all of you!
P.S. THERE HAVE BEEN CHANGES TO THE LATEST JAMS PLAYLIST. I figured since I’m no longer on Christmas break, I’d go ahead and update the music to my Junior Year (Spring) playlist. There are a couple of artists from my Christmas break playlist on there, but there are some new things too.
Also, my friend Caylin’s EP Sincerely, Me has released on iTunes and it’s on Spotify, so her whole EP will be on my latest jams tab as well. Please, if you like what you hear, write a review on iTunes for her expressing how much you liked it!
And lastly, “Why Worry” by Set It Off is on the playlist too, so you can check that out! 😀