LET’S TALK ABOUT HOW I’M NOT REACHING ONE OF MY BLOG GOALS FOR THIS WEEKEND BECAUSE I GOT ALL SELF-CONSCIOUS AND SCARED, OKAY.
I have been working on this #FromtheDrafts post for almost a week, maybe longer now, and I just can’t seem to bring myself to get it to where I need to be, or where I want it to be. I feel like I’m being completely redundant; like, how many times do y’all need to hear me say I’m struggling in a certain area (it’s not so much worry and anxiety this time, but something different that I have mentioned before)?
My main concern is boring you guys, and giving you content that I’ve given you before. No lie, these are thoughts I think people think when they read some of my stuff, I kid you not…
Yes, Mishy, we know this is something you struggle with, I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. I’m just gonna skip to the end of this post now/not even read this/pretend I read it when you bring it up in conversation.
Oh snap, Mishy posted something, and I know as her friend I’m supposed to read it, but maaaannn, she just keeps saying the same things over and over again, like I could read her first blog post, and get the gist of what she’ll be saying for the next few months.
P.S. THIS IS WHERE COMMENTS UNDER BLOG POSTS WOULD BE HELPFUL, YEAH?!?!? LIKE IF I’VE SAID SOMETHING A MILLION TIMES AND PEOPLE DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT, I WOULD LOVE FOR THEM TO SAY SOMETHIIIINNNGGGG. PLEASE. HELP ME HELP YOU.
Seriously, just because I started this #JustStartWriting gig, doesn’t mean I don’t get self-conscious about what I throw out there for y’all to read! And this is me being self-consious, online, for all my readers to read. Here’s that perfectionist me coming out because *surprise, surprise* I couldn’t get this #FromtheDrafts post finished in the way I wanted it to be done.
*Sidenote: the bold and all-caps is not me shouting at you, it’s me shouting at me. It doesn’t make sense, I know, just believe me when I say I’m not angry at anyone except for myself here. Got it? Get it? GOOD.
This is just a small writer’s rant I need to get out of my system. And since #JSW is all about me just starting to write things that come to me, HERE IT IS.
I feel like this should be a page in my journal instead of a post for my blog, but too bad, this is what I’ve decided to post in lieu of my original plan. I’m sorry if I’ve disappointed some of you. But sometimes things just don’t go as planned. How many times do I have to say that? Good grief.
If anything, this is me being completely real to y’all about what’s been happening in my writing world. I have a little less than a week left of month 2 of #JustStartWriting, and I’ve already made some plans for month 3 that I’m super excited about, but those plans are specifically set for the next month. I’m not sure how I’m going to finish these last several days out, if I’m honest.
Okay…I think that little rant helped, but I’m not sure. Maybe tomorrow I’ll post a different #FromtheDrafts post, and leave that other one alone…for now…or for forever.
If you read this all the way through, thank you. I commend you for sticking with it, and just letting me roll like this.
I’ll hopefully be back tomorrow with something a little more concrete. I won’t make any promises though LOL. 😛