“Me” Type of 2018

In the days before Christmas, I was already thinking about 2018, and how I want my overall attitude to be. If you follow me on Twitter, I’ve made a thread of the type of 2018 I’m going to have (that was fun, by the way haha).

2017 was really a year of growth for me, and now I feel like I’m ready for 2018 to be filled with action. But during, or even before I start planning all the actions, there needs to be some moments of active reflection on 2017…

I’m currently reading a poetry book entitled Pillow Thoughts by Courtney Peppernell, and it always amazes me how so many poets have so many thoughts that are just SO TRUE, and completely fit specific instances in my life.

And there have been several little poems of hers that have hit home for me as I reflect on 2017, and plan and envision what my 2018 will look like (again, with the openness that the Lord will move the way He so desires). So, for the next several days until the new year, I’m going to write a post on a few of Peppernell’s poems, and how they relate to my reflection and envisioning.

“When you have been someone  your whole life and suddenly you realize a part of you exists that you never realized before, it’s perhaps the hardest thing to walk away from the you that you have always known. To walk into the open arms of this new, redefined you is like saying, I don’t know you very well, but I want to.”

~ page 194, Pillow Thoughts, Courtney Peppernell

This poem perfectly describes how I feel like my 2017 has been – it was a year of revelation as the Lord showed me a part of who I am that I honestly didn’t know was there, and the year continued in confirmation as time after time He faithfully said, “Yes, this is who you are. This is who I created you to be.”

And a lot of my 2017 has been me trying to really grasp and embrace this part of me that the Lord has allowed me to discover – the poet / spoken word me. The me that I honestly was intimidated and scared of becoming, but that I now know is woven into who God has called me to be.

One of my favorite people ever, Arielle Estoria, said once that it’s amazing to see how God brings us back to the things we tend to run away from. For her, it was acting and being on stage. For me, it is writing poetry, and possibly speaking it on stages for people to hear. I’ve never really liked to perform, to be the center of attention for people to watch and stare at and take in. But now, after this year of confirmation, I’m determined to expose myself to the things I feel called to.

So yes, I’ve definitely felt moments of not knowing who this part of me was, and striving to get to know me. And I plan on going into 2018 with this me completely accepted.

I challenge you to look back into 2017, and ask yourself – were there things about yourself that you never knew that you had to face? Have you been afraid to accept who you are / who you’re called to be? How can you better embrace yourself going into 2018?

#MishyWrites #Typeof2018

 

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