I was sitting here in bed, trying to figure out what I would write about, when I realized I haven’t really talked about my faith in a while. I briefly mentioned it in my last “sweet tea” post, but I could do better in sharing the things I’m learning when I feel led to.

Today, one of my main prayers was for God to help me to trust Him more. I’ve seen His faithfulness all throughout my life, and I have clung to a specific instance that happened within the last few years where God really isolated me, yet in His mercy, heard my cry, and allowed me to be where I am today, and with the man of God I’m with now. But lately, I’ve been feeling myself desiring to control everything, and I can see how unhealthy it has made me spiritually.

If I say I trust God, then I need to trust Him with everything at all times, good or bad. Trying to control things on my own is contradictory to my claimed belief of Who God is. I’m also placing myself on a pedestal as an idol, thinking I have any power to control anything, knowing I’ll pat myself on the back if things go my way.

The crazy thing is, doing things my way has resulted in things going my way, but at the price of positive things occurring, or my ideal result not coming into fruition. And if my quiet time today, and tonight’s Bible study told me anything, it’s that GOD will get the glory – His will will always triumph. He is sovereign, and He might allow me to have my way just so I can see that I cannot move forward alone, and with my own agenda in mind.

All things are purposed for His glory. And I am praying that the Holy Spirit would help me to see this more and more in my daily life.

Mishy 🦋🩵