I really, really wanna share this spoken word poem I wrote this afternoon here on the blog, but I think I’ll have to save it for another time.
It’s only the first day since I’ve started my two-week Twitter break, and already, I feel a difference in the way I’m thinking and writing. This definitely doesn’t mean I’m out of the mindset I was previously in, but I’m getting there. I’m willing to do what it takes to be sure I’m on the right path, the path the Lord wants me to be on.
Truly, I don’t think I’ve ever felt more at home and at peace than when it’s just me and God really sorting through my feelings and emotions. There have been times in the past couple of weeks where I’ve tried to write, but it just didn’t seem right. I felt like I was forcing words onto paper, really trying to make things flow, and then I’d just end up scratching it all, knowing it wasn’t genuine. Knowing I was just trying to get another piece finished so that I could add it to the collection. Or, I would worry too much about whether other people would like it, and not be concerned about whether what I was writing was true, or whether it pointed back to God.
But numbers and popularity never really mattered to me until I started having a little taste of both. And as hard as I tried to be humble through it all, being humble is harder than saying a lot of “thank you’s,” and being grateful for things that have come your way. Just being honest here. Humility begins in the spirit and in the mind. And I was super hesitant to believe that pride was as powerful as it actually is. But even having that mindset is prideful, in a way.
As I continue this week and the next, I pray that humility would just reign in my heart, and that I can continue this growth process completely focused on God.
Now is not the time for rest. It is time to work.
💙 Mishy 🦋