Hello from Tybee Island!
My sister and I made it back home, and feeling the beach/island vibes have taken me back to when I used to live here after I graduated from college almost 3 years ago (WHAAAT).
And back then, I didn’t have much of a social life. I worked and spent a lot of my time focusing on myself, and what I wanted to do with my life when it came to my writing and my career. During that time, I began blogging more – like, every day. Because I used to have the excuse in college that I couldn’t blog as much as I wanted to because I didn’t have the time.
Well, here I was fresh out of college with a job, but with WAY more time than I ever had while I was in school. And I felt guilty because I still wasn’t writing as much as I wanted to. So, I challenged myself to write and publish a blog post every single day. And I did it for MONTHS! It was so productive and freeing for me.
Now, with me being back home, I’m inspired to do it again, at least for the rest of this spring break week! Especially since I haven’t done such a good job of posting blogs lately
About that Disappointment…
Well first, I’m EXCITED! Tomorrow is the official first day of spring, and even though I was born in the winter time, warmer seasons work better with my personality, and my life in general. I just love them so much! And the fact that I get to spend the first several days of spring on my island, the place that helped birth who I would eventually become, has me all sorts of happy.
But I’m also feeling a little disappointed. That’s pretty confusing, right? How can I be both excited AND disappointed right now?
Well, tomorrow is not only the first official day of spring, but it’s also the day I had planned to release my poetry EP project. And due to having to wait on some things, and having to re-plan other things, it won’t be going live tomorrow. And of course, I’m pretty disappointed about it. I had planned that date before 2019 even hit, and I still wasn’t able to accomplish it.
In a way, I feel like a failure a little bit. I’ve been trying to get these poems out for months, maybe even a whole year, and I can’t seem to get it done when I want to, or how I want it done. I definitely don’t want to rush the process, but I also don’t want to leave it unreleased either.
Then I think, Well, what was I even DOING these past few months before this planned release date? And I think of all the other work I’d put into things like my Facebook page, my Instagram, this blog. I think of the planning and preparing I did for Season 2 of #MotivationalMishyMondays, and my very first event I did near the beginning of this month.
So, even though I hadn’t been really focusing on my EP project, I was focusing on a LOT of things building my brand as a whole. Maybe I had to work on those things first in order to lay a more solid foundation for my poetry EP to be released, and if that’s the case, then so bet it! As I try to fight the disappointment and feelings of failure, I’m trying to remind myself of the things I did accomplish, and the upcoming things I am working on now. Just because I have to push back my EP release date (AGAIN), it doesn’t mean it will never be released.
Now, it doesn’t mean that I should excuse any slacking I did do resulting in my project not being finished. But I can still cut myself some slack, and realize that, overall, I succeeded in accomplishing a lot of other things I’d wanted to accomplish. And as I plan and prepare for the upcoming spring (and summer) months, I am hoping to get this project done in order for me to release it before the year is up, but most importantly, in the way I want it be promoted and released.
What About You?
Have you ever been disappointed because you weren’t able to accomplish something in time? Evaluate that situation: how can you put a positive spin on the negative feelings you might be feeling as a result of not finishing something?
My hope is that you’re able to push past any regret, feelings of failure, or disappointment, and be encouraged to continue moving forward in whatever work you’re doing!
See you tomorrow, friends!