On the 5th day of poetry, Mishy gave to us…
“you don’t hurt me like you used to”
Sure, a year ago, that trick would’ve worked.
I’d be done for – my heart aching to know
Why you hadn’t peeped a word. My soul, insecure of all I am compared to the people you so value on a whim, but then
Claim to want to disassociate with once you’ve
Had your fill.
But you’ve used that trick one too many times and
I’ve learned since then; I know better now.
I’ve studied your habits and thoughts and
I’m not surprised you’d do something like this again, to
Grab my attention – to get under my skin, to maybe
Make me feel jealous or hurt because I wasn’t
“Worthy” enough for you to seek out.
I’m sorry, but that doesn’t work on me anymore. I know my value isn’t dependent upon your judgment of me, on whether you choose to see me or not.
Sorry, not sorry.
You don’t hurt me like you used to.
~ written on September 26, 2017 at 10:30pm